Day one for you and me

day 1 of the new me and you

            So it's after 10:30pm Sunday night and I can't sleep because I have all these thoughts going through my head. I've prayed already. My cat, Precious, has come to snuggle me to sleep - except I can't get there. She leaves. She has tried to do her job and I failed. Forty-five minutes later I am still lying in bed. My husband is snoring so I pop in an ear plug to no relief; I can still hear him. I close my eyes and listen to my heartbeat - it sounds good. Maybe if I focus I can drift off to sleep that way.

            Nope. It is 11:30pm and I am still wide awake. Crazy too, since I haven't had coffee since before 7pm (I think). I had big plans of getting tons of things accomplished this weekend, but the only goal that was reached was completing four homework assignments. Well, I exercised too. Precious returned and attempted to snuggle me off t o sleep again. I made her mad though, because she kept trying to lay with her tail by my face - you know what that means. So I would move her so her head is closer to my face. After three tries it works and she gets comfortable. I pet her, scratch her head, and then snuggle my hand to her belly. This is our nightly position, well, it has become our nightly position and routine for about the last year. She had never slept up by my face until my husband (he is in the Army) deployed (2006). At that time she moved from my feet to where I could sometimes put my arm around her - that happened twice, and then by my face - that happened maybe twice. But when we had to evacuate the house because of the potential fires (2007), she became a different cat. She became affectionate and loving and approachable. Basically, everything a cat is supposed to be (smile).

            So, it is now midnight. I give up on trying to go to sleep because I have all these ideas about what to do with my Pep Talk Publishing web site and Face Book page. I think about how I can try and put different blocks of information. I think about the Pep Talk products and the books I hope to publish soon. I think about the artist for an upcoming book and how I need to get in touch with her. And I think about this "whatever it is." I think about writing a daily note for the person or person that needs a daily "to do" list. But, knowing how freakishly busy I am - I don't know if I can do daily, but I'll try. It might be weekly or every two weeks. Except, the people I have in mind that this 'column' can help need a daily dose of realism. So if I can, that's what it will be. It is after midnight- I can't commit to a daily yet.

            My mind is still wide awake (to my chagrin - tomorrow will be a long day because of it). Oh, a yawn. Am I boring myself? Am I boring you? I sure hope not. So, here is your dose of realism: Love yourself! Yes, I wrote a book on Loving Yourself First (I recommend it), but that is not entirely what I am talking about and this isn't a plug for the book.

            What I am talking about is the you that is hiding beneath all the crap. What is it you want? What is it I want? How can you or I really look within and figure it out? I pray. I ask for guidance. My girlfriend Okneco says it will come in my sleep - because my mind is too busy. Of course, I must get to sleep to be able to receive the wisdom. I did receive some tonight-and that is this column. So, back to you and me and our wants! I know for certain we don't want the same things, but since I don't know what you want - I am going to share what I want and then share the steps I take to get there.

            Luckily, I am in a good marriage and have a great husband. My children are fabulous too. The animals drive me crazy, but as my friend Lisa says, "A clean house is over-rated!" It is my internal drive for success that I will share, my need to succeed. Feel free to comment and send recommendations my way.

            I have great passion for singing, songwriting, art, training, curriculum design and development, and prose. Except for the songwriting part (I write fabulous songs) and the training/curriculum development (my classes are awesome) - I need to work on the singing, art, and writing. But on all of it I need to work on the business of it and the marketing. These are the pull-out-my-soul loves, needs, and challenges.

            My goal this weekend was finishing my Pep Talk Publishing website and my Pep Talk Publishing Face Book page. As I have said, I did not get those done. It is imperative for my sanity as well as my business that I get those done and done well. So tomorrow, I will research some Face Book pages for businesses to see what they look like. I will find ones that have many fans (I want lots of fans - but for the right reasons).I will see what I like and don't like and what is applicable. I will design my favicon and work on completing my Face Book page. That will probably take up all my free time (I don't have much). If I complete that, then I will work on getting the PayPal information correct on my website.

            What is it you need to accomplish today or tomorrow? What is holding you back from reaching your success? Feel free to write. My best wishes for your success, Lorraine.